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Now, one of the best parts about following a calling is when you get those signs and messages confirming that you are on the right track. I mean, we all need a little encouragement and validation now and then, right? I had some pretty big signs recently that I am excited to share.
First, I have been volunteering and facilitating Ayahuasca ceremonies as of a few months ago. I am very excited for this opportunity to learn more about the medicine and it’s process. Not only will I have the chance to hold space and support others, but it has given me the ability to participate in more ceremonies for my own development and work under an experienced shaman. I am nearly bursting with excitement as I think about what’s to come!
My first ceremony as a volunteer was intense. As soon as everyone took the medicine and laid down to await their journey, I had a massive panic attack. I had flashbacks to my own first ceremony and started experiencing the same level of fear I had back then (definitely a sign that I have something to work through!). I made lifelong friends that weekend and witnessed a true transformation of one person specifically, a veteran with PTSD.
The first day of the retreat I met him and I spoke to him specifically because I saw that he was completely separated from everyone else on the property. He called to me. This man seemed sad and destroyed, if I am being completely honest. By the end of the weekend, he was a different person. He was talking to others, hugging them, and he just had this permanent smile it fixed on his face. I had witnessed a true transformation and I was completely blown away. This of course was only one of several examples that I saw over that weekend, but it’s the one that sticks out the most.
The second universal sign happened when I offered to help my friend during her mushroom ceremony, which was to be facilitated by a shaman. She shared with me that when she works with mushrooms, she channels messages from somewhere (or someone) else and she needed a scribe for the ceremony. When I arrived at her house the day of the ceremony, I learned that the shaman had cancelled and my friend asked me if I could jump in instead! Side note: If you have never seen someone channel, I highly recommend it. Their voice, posture and mannerisms change completely as they take one someone else. It was a great ceremony and, right in the middle of it, I received a message. My friend sat up, pointed her finger at me, and said “you need to go to Peru, there is wisdom for you there”.
It Blew. My. Damn. Mind.
As if these occurrences weren’t enough, I just finished spending the weekend with a master shaman from the Shipibo tribe of Peru. I was originally asked if I would be interested in volunteering at a small private ceremony, which turned into a full blown paid facilitator gig. “Facilitating” means that you are holding space for the participants, looking after their physical and energetic bodies, but also drinking the medicine to maintain a connection with the plant and with everyone in the room. In addition to this beautiful experience, we all got the education of a lifetime from this wonderful man. He taught us how to journey properly, with literal step-by-step instructions and potential outcomes. I cannot wait to share these lessons with other truth seekers and participants.
I was so excited at how fast things are unfolding that I had to make a Meme to reflect my joy haha.
Another small note of gratitude to several people who have been supporting and assisting me these last few months:
Angela Benck is a wonderful Integration Coach who helped me work through some of that fear I spoke about above. Integration between Ayahuasca sessions is imperative to getting the most out of your experience and healing.
Eliza Stephen at Rise & Shine, Love continues to help me with concerns and questions I have surrounding self growth and the plant medicine path.
Sacred Snuff provides me with local and affordable Rapé, which I am currently learning how to work with.
Amy Anthony for her incredible sound healing and bridging a gap I didn’t know existed.
As always, thank you for letting me share <3. I have some exciting things coming up in the next few months, including a trip to Vancouver to attend the 2018 Spirit Plant Medicine Conference. I can’t wait to share and grow this knowledge with anyone feeling the call to hear it!